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Wednesday, March 31, 2004
here's e reply 2 my tag..
Cas|ope|a: haha..wun de la..btw can take mrt ma..i 4gt where u stay le..haha.. bt gd tt @ least u haf a place 2 go..study hard wor..stay happy..take care..
hmm..2day start of ct2 le..tml chi plus hist!! wah..heavy sub sia..bt those hu gt geo like worst..cos hist is mostly SBQ den onli 5m worth of SAQ s nt so bad..bt chi is like 3bks!! doubt i can fin..so ya..haiz..nvm..wat reali matters dis yr is o level..
2day e eng was okok la..bt den again my eng sux..so ya..haha..emaths was ok till e last few qn..cant figure out..bt oh well over le..nw worry 4 chi n hist tml..haha..
yest had talk tings out..hmm..i was pretty upset..plus was nt in a gd mood yest..so ya lo..mayb im 2much..bt well..dun noe la..dun wanna tink abt sth tt is over..
had lunch wif julia dis 2-days..was fun talkin 2 her..den ya..yest we studies a little..2day nv cos we both wanna go hm study chi..so ya..im suppose 2 study nw..bt argh!! can resist..bt well..i dun tink i can fin study my chi either..nvm i shall do wateva i can lata..lookin @ my classmates study..im freaked out..haiz..y they so hardworkin while im slackin? argh!! i haf 2 try..bt i dun seem 2 b tryin..beta buck up amanda!!
piano*gal >.<
gd luck 2 all sjc gals takin ct2!! (".)
thinking of you @ 5:38 PM
Monday, March 29, 2004
hmm..changin my piano teacher le..feel bad sia..when i failed she didnt wan teach mi de..den lata she gave in n try 12 help mi..bt den i muz tink of other tings 1st ba..everyday i ahf 2 stay back..den fri haf 2 rush there..like v tirin..sori teacher..will get u sth..n write a letter 2 thx u 4 everyting..will miss her though..cos she has been my teacher since p2!! reali like gone thru a lot wif her..n she is a great teacher..though strict..haha..bt thx a lot man!! nw usin my sis teacher ba..cos more convenient..plus she teach durin wk ends oso..bt i still haf 2 find time 2 prac like mad..i reali need 2 pass..bt dis time im nt onli hopin 2 pass..bt 2 do well..cos i heard my julia say grade8 is impt 2 do well..hope i can..i muz!! nw hope my thoery can pass..haha..june den can take results..
everyday muz reach sch @ 7.10..wat e hell..juz cos e teacher unhappy wif us..argh!! e teachers r nv happy..den like tt i muz reach sch @ 7 everyday..cos i muz go locker..argh!! like nt fair lo..we councillors oso human lo..my frd oso say..dun they realise onli e councillors r listenin 2 them onli lo..haiz..dun noe wat has e sch become..nvm..muz tolerate..im nv gg 2 advise ppl 2 come dis sch..oh well..
tml gt meetin..confirm gg 2 get scolded again..haiz..mr sim nt happy cos those ppl doin chairs nv go repost 2 him..like wat e hell lo..some gt other tings all @ e same time den wat shld we do? slipt ourselves? argh!!
piano^gal >.<
lifes nv fair!!
thinking of you @ 6:36 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2004
heyz...2day in GD mood!! heez..e awards ting is finally over!! heez..i crazy le..i VERI VERI happy tt we (sec4s) r free fr choir!! yeah man!! so tired of choir lo..bt i tink mrs low v upset leh..haiz..feel bad..bt well..wat can she do? she gt try 2 defend us le will miss her ba..bt she is nt exactly a teacher tt i will say is gd..she can b bias..a lot of teachers r..wat can we do? we cant change them rite? heez..anyway enough of tt..gd mood..dun wanna spoil it..heez..
my dad say..i smile my eyes veri small..haha..its natural ma..den horz..i tink e choir sang well..bt oh well..haha..den aft e ting a lot of ppl cheer n cheer..haha..den my ears gg 2 burst le..haha..
listened 2 mrs chan n e professor's speech..im like..juz listen lo..mrs chan so fake lo..wat e hell..den horz..e professor onli c e surface of e sch..nt e insed of it..so hw can he say our sch is gd? he dun noe e stud r veri unhappy lo..ok la..dun say e students..i believe some teachers oso ma..rite? bt like i say..there is nth we can do abt it..tt's human..i tink i oso sometimes v wat la..its nt ez 2 juz change..time is needed..
hmm..sure m gg 2 miss those choir days..saw a lot of our seniors..they look so mature now..well some la..haha..i'll miss my sec4 days..n other fun n happy days..nt 4gettin e sad days..cos it made mi learn..
piano^gal >.<
when u fall..dun get 2 upset..cos u get 2 learn...
thinking of you @ 9:09 PM
life been bad..dun noe where 2 start..mayb start fr e sch ba..i dun noe wat is gg on wif it leh..everyting like suddenly change n i dun tink im v happy wif it..nt onli mi ba..im sure many r nt happy..i regret man..regret comin 2 dis sch..i used 2 say i regret becomin a councillor..bt nw i realised e BIGGEST mistake i eva did was 2 enter dis sch..i cant transfer nw..it will b 2 late..so i'll juz stick 2 it..its onli a few more mths left ma..rite? heez..
act gt a lot 2 write..bt decide nt 2 write le..feelin beta..been in bad mood since thur evenin till yest nite..like wat e hell..haha bt tink lata many get angry again..haiz..so tired of e sch sia..
haiz..dar n you mei like 'quarrellin' cos of our attire 4 e awards ting..haiz..they r frdz since pri sch lo..n they r both my frdz.. bt well..i dun tink i haf a big headache as my other dar..they r her pri sch frdz..n they were once close..nw like tt..haiz..hope their misunderstandin will clear soon..wan them 2 b frdz..
i hope aft dis awards ting..i can finally settle down n work damn hard..haiz..bt horz i lack e motivation..hw? hw ppl? hw do i motivate myself?
piano^gal >.<
life is nv fair or happy..u need 2 look @ it in a positive way..den u'll b happy.. =)
thinking of you @ 9:35 AM
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
y do i seem 2 irritated others? i dun wan 2 lo...i reali wana make as many frdz as i can...bt wat i do seem2 anger them away i dun mean 2 though...sori ok?
erm..clarissa is my mei mei le..haha..hmm..u v lame arz..ur tag..haha..sori deleted it..cos wanna save space..heez..does any1 noe e tag there can put hw many msg? heez..wanna noe..
hmm..yest dar wrote mi a letter..sth small bt it meant a lot 2 mi..haha..thx again wor..heez..
i dun noe wat else 2 write le..nth on my mind nw..haha..
piano^gal >.<
so tired...
thinking of you @ 6:10 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2004
hmm...quite upset...though it's nt suppose 2 b i upset la..he couldn't get into e course or rather e poly..bt he like n affected.. den let mi b upset 4 him ba..told him he need 2 change his attitude in his studies..he agreed tt he slack a lot..n say tt if he can get into poly he will start afresh..i hope he does..find tt dis few days we r closer some hw..though when i angry wif him aft a while ok le..heez..happy 4 us..thougu missin him more n more dis days..mayb cos we haven reali gt much time 2 hang out le..since im always so bz..bt im guilty of 1 ting..i always chat on fone wif him..though im bz..will find time..is it bad? haiz my results like gettin bad..bt den im like doin nth..haiz..i hope i noe my limits..
go eat nw..beta stop here..haha..if nt i cant stop sayin bad tings abt myself..haha
piano^gal
i love u dear...(=^.^=) *hUgx**muackzz*
thinking of you @ 6:57 PM
Saturday, March 20, 2004
2day went back sch...den we were so irritated...den my dar gt scolded...like wat e hell lo...e teacher like pick on her sia...its like nt onli her tt do tt lo...den she dun catch...purposely catch my dar...irritatin...haiz...bt wat 2 do? many ppl r 2-faced...i believe im oso 1 sometimes...n i reali feel v guilty...bt haiz...i tink its human nature...bt i still muz change...
mother an qi didnt come 2day...gd ting i took back my $5 yest...haha...if nt wonder when den i will get it back...haha...den i had 2 conduct cos steph nt there oso...haha...den was quite paiseh la...bt den was nt as paiseh as last time...mayb cos i changed more le...a bit more brave den last time le...gd ting...heez...
so tired dis few days mayb cos everyday gg back sch...den i realised im runnin short of time yet im slackin...cos reali v sianz n tired...no mood do anyting...juz slack...y everytime when come impt yr is slack?? i beta buck up man...haiz...i keep tellin myself tt yet im nt doin any improvement...ct comin le...haven study...dun even say study...i haven even fin my hw...8sub of work sia...haiz...i onli fin 2sub...tml muz rush like mad...den still gt my piano 2 prac...like wat e hell...i keep tinkin yet nt doin anyting...so stupid...den 2day was damn irritated wif an sch...tt spoiled my whole day...oh well...
piano^gal >.<
when an extra mile from me makes u feel nth...it means i am nth 2 u...
thinking of you @ 10:02 PM
Thursday, March 18, 2004
2day went 4 a course...was quite fun n im sure i will miss 2day veri veri much...esp when i leave e sch...we had 2 write letters 2 our frdz...i wrote 1 2 penny...ai ling n van jie... haha...i noe i shld write 2 ppl im much closer wif...bt i dun wanna 4get my 'old' frdz...so ya...i didnt regret gg 4 e mission...it made mi tink abt my frdship...n hw bad a frd i haf been...bt wan 2 change myself doesn't make it easier 2 change...it takes time...lots of time...
i reali miss tt part of my life where there r no worries or probs 2 handle...everyting was my parents decide...nw my path of life is wat i choose...1 wrong step can b veri bad...agree??i tink i made many mistakes le...bt those cant b changed anymore bt i can try 2 turn it round...or mayb i cant...wat done cant b undone...
a gal told us her story...nt her full story...bt it was painful enough 4 her...den horz...gt another...she n her old best frd...dun noe if they r still frdz b4... they had diff opinion of a guy...den theri r/s turn sour...kind of remind mi of mi n her...tings r juz so diff nw...though i noe we both tryin 2 b beta den b4...sometings dun haf 2nd chances...i agree...totally...juz like u can onli live life once...
juz nw went 2 make jelly...haha...so happy...1st time without parents help...2day 1st time had so much fun wif sis...heez
happy tt im nt lonely...heez...siblings can reali bring a smile...if u reali wanna appreciate...n dun always get so angry wif them...bt patient...
piano^gal >.<
happiness comes fr within...
thinking of you @ 5:45 PM
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
2day went ps wif him...heez...saw jia min...i tink i saw her la...cos side way..more of her back..haha...bt she didnt c mi...gd ting.. haha...tt time saw sharon..2day saw her...haha...qiao or wat? heez...saw a lot of my sch ppl...den gt e b*tchy gals their attire like shit like tt lo...plus purposely put down their socks...in front of mi!!! wat e hell...they tink they wat?? irritatin ppl..sec3s..dislike them since last yr...haiz...onli some i like..e more guai ones...ok...bt they r nt all guai la...cos no1 is perfect bt well...i still consider them guai..heez...
gt some didnt recognise mi...so nvm...haha...gt 1 recognise mi...i oso heck care le...i mean i gt stead onli ma...nt say it is illegal 2 haf stead ma...rite? heez...so they wanna say like them say....i wun b bothered by wat think tink...heez...even if they say my stead nt shuai all tt rubbish...haha...i love him can le rite? heez...
tml still gt sch...dun noe wat missin crap ting...haiz...so tired sia...2day watch movie oso veri sianx nowadays...feel bad sia.. was nt a v gd company 2 him 2day...bt ya...i noe he understands...fri still gt rehersal...so tired...sat mayb oso gt...like wat e.. i haven study 4 my ct sia...haiz...tink im gonna do more badly le...
piano^gal >.<
u control time...nt time control u...
thinking of you @ 7:45 PM
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
hmm...dis 2 days went 4 councillor course...well...i wun exactly say it's a waste of my time...cos i learn a little abt time management...n self esteem...a bit of tt... though e hours 4 our 2workshop is damn long...haha...i tink e 1st half of e day course is fun...bt e 2nd half onli some part is interestin...haha...
hmm...e councillors came all 2gether n plan certain tings...bt horz...i tink 2day i ver mean la...kept talkin...2sharon lee...haha n other frdz...they make mi so damn paiseh wor...ask so many qn...haha...bt well...i tink horz...by e end of e yr...e whole council will noe tt i gt a bf le...haha....oh well...nvm la...its nt a jian bu de ren e shi... haha...so ya...im happy 2 b wif him can le rite? y bother wat other ppl tink...haha...juz like wat i learn...as long as u noe e gd pts...n noe wat u r doin... =Þ
fr nw on...i need 2 reali conc on those impt stuff....im gg 2 work out my time table...n will follow it...i muz!!!
lata need 2 do fin my chem hw...if nt tml i die...haha...cos tml gt chem lesson...bt horz...i dun noe hw do sia...lata den i go crack my brain...haha...dun care...heez...
piano^gal >.<
smilez...as it will bright up some1's day...u may nv noe when...
thinking of you @ 7:35 PM
Saturday, March 13, 2004
lata havin my theory exam le...a bit scared nw...bt well...i muz make it!! aud darlin 1:48 am msg mi...haha...so happy sia... heez... her msg is like dis: 'jia you 4 ur exam!! love you...' heez... juz a simple msg 2 make mi smile...thx dar...
hmm...i dun noe wat else 2 write...haha...my mind nw is blank...cant rem a ting abt theory!! die...bt hope lata can rem...
k la...i stop here...aft my theory...mayb tml i write abt my theory paper...hope it wun b 2 difficult!!!
btw clar...i agree...e members n participants muz play a part...it takes 2 hands 2 clap...bt den...i realise 2 atmosphere was bad? dun noe hw describe...no1 was interested...did u realise...onli some ppl @ e back row...haha...i was cheerin...n my throat hurtz...heez...bt all e best 4 st emilie!!!
piano^gal >.<
feelin scared...
6.00pm
hmm...dun noe if i can pass my paper...quite difficult!! i tink i lost like 25++marks le...didnt noe hw do e last qn...haiz...bt i did wat i could le...juz haf 2 pray hard tt i pass...a 70 can le...juz a 70...wonder hw my other frdz did...
my teacher's son was there oso...gt a shock..tot he completed grade8 le...nw diploma...he is onli like p5!!!
if i fail again...i dun noe hw face my teacher le...bt like i said i did wat i could...it may nt b my best bt it was wat i could do.. nw i muz conc fully on my piano prac n o levels...so dear dear...if i neglect u in anyway im sorry...bt i noe u will understand...u always did...heez...tt's wat i love abt u...
piano^gal >.<
as long as u did ur best...
thinking of you @ 10:35 AM
Thursday, March 11, 2004
2day my sch sports day!! so happy!!! st emilie rocks man!! haha...we gt 2nd!! 1st time since i came sec sch...haha...every time is 4th place de...last...den dis yr we shoot up to 2nd place!! so happy!! haha...i crazy le... bt den horz...dis yr e atmosphere like even more sianz...bt i screamed till throat pain nw...haha...bt well...once in a yr ting...so ya...heez...next will b e swimmin meet...(i tink) hope st emilie can get 2nd again...@ least a 2nd...i tink st helen veri upset wor...bt well...even e best will lose sometimes...nv gd 2 always win...dun u all agree?
oh btw... yoz darlin aud...wanted save space 4 my tag board...so deleted ur msg...haha...sori...cos i wanna keep those nice msg...so tt when i sae i can use them 2 cheer myself up...heez...
haven study my piano theory fin!! haiz...dun noe can study fin nt...bt den...i dun noe wat 2 rem...den like gt a lot 2 rem..so i juz read thru...i cant let myself n those ard mi down again...haiz...im tryin though...tml i'll work extra hard...though i noe im doin last min...n usually its nt gd...lata i'll go read those i haf done...tml i fin up my hw my piano teacher gave mi den off i go 4 lesson...den i read fin thru again...those i tink v impt... wish mi luck!!
tml gt half day!! heez...so happy...bt den cant go out la...cos of theory exam...nvm i dun mind as long as i can pass...go out can other time de rite? heez...tml e teachers gt 2 go batam 4 retreat...so gd rite? haha...bt well... aft sch stayin back awhile cos dun noe amaths den goin 2 ask ms lim... heez...
piano^gal >.<
e key 2 sucess is havin e rite strategy...
thinking of you @ 7:43 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
thx 4 every1 comfort... ya true my theory is nt a death of life ting...bt 2 mi if i fail...i reali let many many ppl down...my teacher she reali spent lots of time 4 mi...den my parents...they pay so much 4 mi...my frdz hu supported mi...inculdin u darlin haiz...nvm...i'll get beta soon...mayb aft i c e paper is so ez...heez...i need 2 pass dis yr!!
haiz...my whole hols is like gone...n they even wanna take my next sat!! argh!! if go back 4 studies i dun mind...bt den is 4 other tings...which i dun noe is abt wat...haiz...den when our studies bad they blame us...nt themselves..cos they tink their tings n wat they do 4 us is ALWAYS rite....when sometimes they r doin wat we r doin!!
2day get back terly report...i failed 2 sub...my other results quite bad...haiz...bt well...dun dare show parents sia...nvm
tml sports day le...heez...so happy...
gtg,
piano^gal >.<
stay happy every1
thinking of you @ 9:51 PM
Saturday, March 06, 2004
haven been updatin since e start of e mth...haha...been bz...need stay back in sch almost everyday...*sigh* sec4 life is reali so stressful man...
yest went 4 my piano lesson...haiz...aft tt quite depress cos i feel so stupid tt i couldn't do e theory...i didnt noe hw 2 find it haiz...hw m i gg 2 pass my theory next sat?? well...i still gt till next fri 2 study damn hard...aft dis i gg 2 do my work fin den i shall go start revisin my theory...i dun wanna let my frdz, parents n teacher n him...down again...i'll kill myself if i do...
hmm...life r so full of up n down huh...im tryin 2 still b happy when my life is down...bt sometimes its so hard...esp if i feel like cryin...so hard 2 stop urself huh...haha...bt well...tt's life...im tryin 2 keep mine under control...esp my bad temper...haha.. bt sometimes...u 4get when e ppl or person make u so angry...tt u juz feel like boxin them...
piano^gal >.<
*wishin myself gd luck 4 my piano theory exam... n 2 those takin it..* study hard!!
thinking of you @ 12:28 PM
wishing for--*
* new tops/ bottoms/ jumper
* nail polish
* new highlights for hair
* new heels
* new diary (notebook)
* have a beta 2007
* be more decisive
movie list--*
happy feet
open season
Night at the Museum
charlotte's web
eragon
= the holiday =
curse of e golden flower
= zodiac =
= TMNT =
= Ghost Rider =
= Spider Man 3 =